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A lot of people have asked me why I went MGTOW, or what made me become MGTOW. The truth is, every single experience I've ever had with women has pushed me in this direction. Starting from my earliest relationship at 13 (who cheated on me with my best friend and fucking crushed me) to the very last girl I dated. The last girl I dated was actually a decent girl, but she was also the last nail in the coffin which made me give up on women.

She was 30 when I met her, and I was 32. Already past her prime, but otherwise not bad. She was around 5'4, with long black hair, d-cup breasts, and 120 pounds. Not bad, but she did not exercise or get any physical activity. Her body had a very doughy consistency, with no muscle tone at all. She claimed to be "red-pilled" and an "MRA" but was really more of a trad-con chameleon. She mostly just seemed upset that the easy ride women used to get in the 50's wasn't an option for her.

In the beginning she would try to cook for me, although she was a horrible cook...but I appreciated the effort. But towards the end, every time we'd hang out I'd always have to cook for her, or go out and buy us food. She never thought to get food before I came over, even though I'd often be coming over at the end of a long shift and I'd be tired and hungry. She also put noticeably less effort into looking good for me...she went from wearing nice dresses and girly outfits to wearing pajamas most of the time. Sometimes she didn't even shower before seeing me.

I was in a relationship with her for over a year. Towards the end, she started telling me she loved me, and wanted to live together. I'm sure that had nothing to do with the fact that she was struggling financially, and I make about 6-7 times more than her. We had great conversations, and in a lot of ways I really liked her. But sexually, she just didn't do much for me. I kept telling her throughout the relationship that I liked girls who worked out and were physically fit, but she never seemed to get the hint. I finally came right out and told her one night that I wasn't very attracted to her because she was in poor shape, and I expected her to do something about it. Needless to say it didn't go over well. She didn't make any effort to get in shape, and I ended up dumping her a couple weeks later.

This girl wanted the life of a 50's housewife, and she found a guy like me, who could have easily provided it for her. All she really had to do was put some effort into pleasing me. I did all sorts of nice things for her, and literally never asked her for anything, except that one thing. For the record, I work out regularly, and am in great shape. I didn't ask her for anything unreasonable. I could have let all of her other faults slide if she would have just done that one thing for me...but she was too lazy even for that. Frankly, I was the best guy she ever dated by a long shot, and I doubt she'll ever date anyone like me again. She had one chance, and she let it slip.

 

 

I've dated a lot of girls in my life, and had mostly shitty experiences with them. She was one of the better ones I've found...easily the best girl I dated in the last three years. I felt really bad after I dumped this girl. I was probably unnecessarily harsh, and I don't enjoy just going around hurting women, contrary to what many people think about MGTOW. I felt horrible. But frankly, I just don't have time to waste on this bullshit anymore.

I'm at a stage in my life where I'm working very hard in my career, and trying to advance my position in life. Dating, and especially relationships, take a lot of time and energy. Time and energy that I simply don't have. Since I dumped her 9 months ago, I haven't gone on a single date or fucked another girl. But I have accomplished more in the last year than I did in two years before that, easily. When I'm not at work, I'm thinking, planning, and making important moves. I'll let you guys in on all the things I've done soon enough...it's a long list. I only have one thing left to do...

 

 

So why did I drop out of the dating game? Frankly, it wasn't worth it. Sure I got laid a lot, but the honest truth is my experiences made me miserable and insane. I started getting nightmares and panic attacks...and ironically, my self-esteem was completely crushed at a time in my life when I was getting laid more than ever. I guess being treated like shit by every girl you meet can have that effect, when you make your whole life about girls. For the hundreds of girls I've dated, I only met one who even came close to being a decent girl. And when I realized what I found, I instantly dropped all the other girls. That girl was all I ever wanted. I was with her for over 3 years. Maybe I'll share that story too, if anyone cares to hear it.

All these girls who get into their 30's and start asking where the good guys went, this is where. I was that guy. Any one of those girls could have had me, easily. All they had to do was be honest with me, and loyal, and not go doing shit behind my back every time they thought I wasn't looking. All they had to do was be a little nicer, a little more thoughtful, a little more feminine. Instead, they have a lifetime of loneliness and poverty to look forward to. But me? I'll be okay. For the first time in my life, I'm really starting to feel good about my life. It just keeps getting better and better.

I know exactly what I'm doing with my life, and where I'm going. I know times are going to get tough, but the truth is I'm looking forward to the challenge. I love to fight against adversity...it brings out the absolute best in me. Somehow I always win, and I always come out of it better and stronger than ever. So I'm going to keep kicking ass at life, while I leave all these worthless women in the trash, where they belong. I'm MGTOW for life.


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Here's the underlying thing for you to remember, women want men to provide for them.  This has always been the case and will always be the case.  Never doubt this fact.  No matter how badly a woman's mind is warped by feminism, she will always want a man to "take care of her." Once a man comes to terms with this, he can act appropriately.  The only other thing that is a universal with women is their desire to control those closest to them.  They'll manipulate, they'll nag, they'll even lie.  But make no mistake about, she'll try and control somehow.  This characteristic even spills over into the workplace and most other areas a woman is involved.  However it's always going to show up in a woman's romantic and familial relationships. They'll deny it, or they'll explain it away with some BS excuse like, "I just want the best for you" or some such nonsense.   Why do they do this? Profound insecurity which seems to be inherent in the female psyche.  It's also partly due to the emotional thinking that goes on with them most of the time.   

I checked out of the relationship game long before you did.   That doesn't make me better than you in any.  It takes what it takes for every MGTOW and/or Red Pilled guy.  I get angry easily and have no patience for ANY BS.  It's because of that I never had much success with women, or with anything else for that matter.  That's why I was out early on. Go figure.  Oh well, I'm old now so women don't want to have much to do with me.  Works out for both parties!  Thing is I've had to fail in major ways for a long period of my life before I learn the major lessons, so there's that.  But I digress.  Women are a luxury at best, and a surefire path to ruin at worst.

To all of you feminists and gurl power fuckers reading this.  Please quote me at will.  Be sure to call me all sorts of names too.  Just remember to include my handle, it's TRAVIS3000.


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You got lucky. I married mine when she was working out but she quit after marrying and ate much more than I ever could. She would drink me under the table too. I never saw a woman drink and eat like her. It was so disgusting. I gave up on trying to help her not look so bad when we were out. Always just became us arguing. I would end up saying sorry cause I upset her and everyone looked at me like I was awful. You might be right about being monk. Every time I have sex problems start. Someone yells at me or demands things from me. I just cant do it anymore and pretend everything is okay. Thank you @Xanthine you game me lots to think about. 


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Xanthine is a man who displays intelligence and logic. I would not say that he was lucky, as much as smart. Excellent history in how you became an independent man, Xanthine. Regardless how anyone wishes to name it, Monk, MGTOW, independent, living your life the way you see fit, relying on only yourself is the only logical way.

"Remember, you're fighting for this woman's honor, which is probably more than she ever did."
Groucho Marx: Duck Soup (1933)


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The logic of Xanthine's experience is inescapable. He has observed, experienced and evaluated coming to the only conclusion he could: Juice ain't worth the squeeze". 

MGTOW monk is the only way to save your life and sanity. Ironically the more men reject the female crotch--the crazier the women become.   


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Posted by: @xanthine

A lot of people have asked me why I went MGTOW, or what made me become MGTOW. The truth is, every single experience I've ever had with women has pushed me in this direction. Starting from my earliest relationship at 13 (who cheated on me with my best friend and fucking crushed me) to the very last girl I dated. The last girl I dated was actually a decent girl, but she was also the last nail in the coffin which made me give up on women.

She was 30 when I met her, and I was 32. Already past her prime, but otherwise not bad. She was around 5'4, with long black hair, d-cup breasts, and 120 pounds. Not bad, but she did not exercise or get any physical activity. Her body had a very doughy consistency, with no muscle tone at all. She claimed to be "red-pilled" and an "MRA" but was really more of a trad-con chameleon. She mostly just seemed upset that the easy ride women used to get in the 50's wasn't an option for her.

In the beginning she would try to cook for me, although she was a horrible cook...but I appreciated the effort. But towards the end, every time we'd hang out I'd always have to cook for her, or go out and buy us food. She never thought to get food before I came over, even though I'd often be coming over at the end of a long shift and I'd be tired and hungry. She also put noticeably less effort into looking good for me...she went from wearing nice dresses and girly outfits to wearing pajamas most of the time. Sometimes she didn't even shower before seeing me.

I was in a relationship with her for over a year. Towards the end, she started telling me she loved me, and wanted to live together. I'm sure that had nothing to do with the fact that she was struggling financially, and I make about 6-7 times more than her. We had great conversations, and in a lot of ways I really liked her. But sexually, she just didn't do much for me. I kept telling her throughout the relationship that I liked girls who worked out and were physically fit, but she never seemed to get the hint. I finally came right out and told her one night that I wasn't very attracted to her because she was in poor shape, and I expected her to do something about it. Needless to say it didn't go over well. She didn't make any effort to get in shape, and I ended up dumping her a couple weeks later.

This girl wanted the life of a 50's housewife, and she found a guy like me, who could have easily provided it for her. All she really had to do was put some effort into pleasing me. I did all sorts of nice things for her, and literally never asked her for anything, except that one thing. For the record, I work out regularly, and am in great shape. I didn't ask her for anything unreasonable. I could have let all of her other faults slide if she would have just done that one thing for me...but she was too lazy even for that. Frankly, I was the best guy she ever dated by a long shot, and I doubt she'll ever date anyone like me again. She had one chance, and she let it slip.

 

 

I've dated a lot of girls in my life, and had mostly shitty experiences with them. She was one of the better ones I've found...easily the best girl I dated in the last three years. I felt really bad after I dumped this girl. I was probably unnecessarily harsh, and I don't enjoy just going around hurting women, contrary to what many people think about MGTOW. I felt horrible. But frankly, I just don't have time to waste on this bullshit anymore.

I'm at a stage in my life where I'm working very hard in my career, and trying to advance my position in life. Dating, and especially relationships, take a lot of time and energy. Time and energy that I simply don't have. Since I dumped her 9 months ago, I haven't gone on a single date or fucked another girl. But I have accomplished more in the last year than I did in two years before that, easily. When I'm not at work, I'm thinking, planning, and making important moves. I'll let you guys in on all the things I've done soon enough...it's a long list. I only have one thing left to do...

 

 

So why did I drop out of the dating game? Frankly, it wasn't worth it. Sure I got laid a lot, but the honest truth is my experiences made me miserable and insane. I started getting nightmares and panic attacks...and ironically, my self-esteem was completely crushed at a time in my life when I was getting laid more than ever. I guess being treated like shit by every girl you meet can have that effect, when you make your whole life about girls. For the hundreds of girls I've dated, I only met one who even came close to being a decent girl. And when I realized what I found, I instantly dropped all the other girls. That girl was all I ever wanted. I was with her for over 3 years. Maybe I'll share that story too, if anyone cares to hear it.

All these girls who get into their 30's and start asking where the good guys went, this is where. I was that guy. Any one of those girls could have had me, easily. All they had to do was be honest with me, and loyal, and not go doing shit behind my back every time they thought I wasn't looking. All they had to do was be a little nicer, a little more thoughtful, a little more feminine. Instead, they have a lifetime of loneliness and poverty to look forward to. But me? I'll be okay. For the first time in my life, I'm really starting to feel good about my life. It just keeps getting better and better.

I know exactly what I'm doing with my life, and where I'm going. I know times are going to get tough, but the truth is I'm looking forward to the challenge. I love to fight against adversity...it brings out the absolute best in me. Somehow I always win, and I always come out of it better and stronger than ever. So I'm going to keep kicking ass at life, while I leave all these worthless women in the trash, where they belong. I'm MGTOW for life.

Thank you Xanthine.

Great share. I was exactly there.

Hoping that the blancmange would firm up after some effort. Hoping that I could have a few good years of rumpy pumpy with a fit GF in my fucking 20's!

Were they a d-cup blancmange pair though? Slapping you around the ears as she road on top? Poking you in the eyes 😖 


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You got lucky. I married mine when she was working out but she quit after marrying and ate much more than I ever could. She would drink me under the table too. I never saw a woman drink and eat like her. It was so disgusting. I gave up on trying to help her not look so bad when we were out. Always just became us arguing. I would end up saying sorry cause I upset her and everyone looked at me like I was awful. You might be right about being monk. Every time I have sex problems start. Someone yells at me or demands things from me. I just cant do it anymore and pretend everything is okay. Thank you @Xanthine you game me lots to think about. 

The brow beating, scene creating cuntish eating machine reveals herself. Jesus mate you've had some close calls.I was in ear shot of one of those this evening. Just walking home and all I could hear was this hideous over weight brow beating cunt behind me. I couldn't understand how the bloke was remaining so cool in his responses. I was really close to shouting out "shut the fuck up". I decided I had to walk faster and change tact to prevent my own outburst from filling the cool quite evening. This is how I feel about them these days. The anger simmers and then boils. All I wanted was for her to keep her fucking voice down. I was at least 50 metres away and my shoulders were beginning to lift with the tension caused from the horrible shrill moaning cunt.

 


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Boyfriends/Husbands/Partners.

It doesn't matter. You don't matter - and you never did. Despite what you allowed yourselves to believe. You were never that important.

To them - ALL that ever mattered was them. They'll never admit it. In fact, most of them won't even realise it to be factual. 

You were a temporary vehicle for getting them to where they wanted to go. 

Don't believe me?

Go on social media if you can. Bring them all up. Look at the photo's. I bet you a steak dinner that they're ALL smiling the exact same smiles with some other random fella, as those treasured photo's you've kept to remember how 'special' a thing you both had together.

Now remember the shit times. Now remember all the grief and hassle and misery. Now look at the new fella's eyes. Now laugh. 

 


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Man, I'm always blown away by the comments and replies I get every time I post a topic on here. You guys are awesome...and every single one of your comments was great.

The one thing I'll say about going monk, and MGTOW...my quality of life speaks for itself. My state of mind speaks for itself. Every day I'm a little happier, a little more content. Every day I'm feeling less worried, less stressed out, less pissed off and depressed. It just keeps getting better.

For me, that's the only argument I really need. It completely justifies every decision I made. We can talk all day about marriage/divorce/child custody statistics. We can talk about false rape/abuse/harassment accusations. We can talk about female entitlement, the 80/20 rule, female obesity and hitting the wall. We can talk about sexist gender quotas at work and in schools. We can talk about male vs female mortality/suicide rates. I mean the list goes on and on.

I've heard all these numbers before, and I've analyzed them endlessly. Everything I've seen supports what I already knew. But at the end of the day, all that really matters is whether or not you're happy with your life. That's what MGTOW is all about. And guys, I'm telling you...there is no better way to live for men. If anyone is reading this who hasn't tried being monk before...just try it. Spend one month without going on dates, or wasting time on dating sites/apps, etc. I guarantee you'll see what I'm talking about. It's a night and day difference.


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Yep. I still have links to the "other side" and the stories of crushed Men going through divorces, still keep coming. It is not if, but when their illusion is shattered. When these male buddies talk of their failed or failing relationshits I just try to remain surprised, interested and showing empathy while smiling with relief to myself.

 


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Some men rush for the red pill, some are more focused and analytical in their path and others continue to ride a pendulum between red and blue for the remainder of their lives.  Regardless of your path, observing and analyzing what you are doing and, more importantly, what you have to do is a very hard process to undergo.  

Kudo's Xanthine for your fortitude in these later stages of your journey.  Many would have succumbed to the allure of the nuclear family era, it is afterall the hallmark of our parents / grand parents.  

 

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​"​My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.​" - Clarence Buddinton Kelland


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But at the end of the day, all that really matters is whether or not you're happy with your life. That's what MGTOW is all about. And guys, I'm telling you...there is no better way to live for men. If anyone is reading this who hasn't tried being monk before...just try it. Spend one month without going on dates, or wasting time on dating sites/apps, etc. I guarantee you'll see what I'm talking about. It's a night and day difference.

I've noticed that not being in a relationship or trying to pursue a woman has made my life better. A man looks at life differently when he doesn't focus a sizable part of his psyche on a current relationship or trying to manifest a new relationship.  

This attitude also makes some women look at you differently. Women who once were completely disinterested in me are now becoming interested.  I've gently refused those who have advances because I felt that getting involved with one of them would be a big mistake. 

I feel like I have a little flashing sign hidden in my heart that says "No messes in dresses!"

Of course, that attitude can make a man even more attractive because most people desire things they can't have. This paradigm can transform a MGTOW into an attractive guy for any reasonably attractive woman who comes along who isn't seriously messed up in between her ears.  

I think that I'm in for a bit of a wait. 

 


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